The Way to Let Go

It's in my head, it's in my heart and more often than not, it feels so right- like it's meant to stay here with me forever. But no, stepping back a little and looking at myself pondering over things I should least be concerned about, I realize that I am making a mistake. I have to let it go.

Then, just as a dear friend of mine asked me a while ago, I asked myself: How do I let go?

Let us refresh ourselves with what God says. Let's try to remember what we've known for so long: If God is not Lord of all, He is not Lord at all. God wants everything.

But as I look at myself and try, pitifully, to evaluate, there's absolutely no doubt that there's still this one thing I haven't laid down on the feet of Jesus. It's tugging at my emotions, playing with my heart. I don't want it to be there, but it is, slowly gaining strength and making itself a stronghold. Even when I know this though, it still feels more comfortable to just let it take hold of me, to let it make a home in my heart. That's when I started be blinded that the seat in my heart that was supposed to be God's and His alone, is being shared by another undeserving creature, who in comparison to God is really just a bag of dust.

But woefully, I silently cry out, 'Can't I just let it stay there?' That's when I started to be really stupid. All the daily devotions and dialogues with God were forgotten and I chose to give my heart free rein. Oh boy, does it feel so right indeed! I'm sure a lot of people can agree with me in this. But God says, the heart is deceitful above all things. How true! So, after several days of thinking things over ( and finally deciding to tell a trusted friend about this) I discovered that I was being deceived; my heart was being fooled.

So now, I stand up, deciding in my heart that this wouldn't get the better of me. I am determined to make God Lord of everything in my life. So finally, I have the answer to my question. I am letting this go by taking hold of God. There's no better way. I'm letting this go by giving the throne back, entirely, to God, pushing away whatever had hindered Him from having it whole.

In practical terms, I'm removing the focus on the distraction and replacing the focus on God.

Yes, the distraction is still very much present (alive and kicking) and it still has this annoying effect on me. But whatever it takes, I'm going to shake it off and look to God. I value God more than anything in this world, love Him more than any sweet human gesture and treasure Him more than any heart-melting smile.

Still the bottom line remains this: loving God with all my heart, mind, soul and strength. Right now, with that as my priority, I have, officially, no time nor energy for anything else.