This Silly Little Smile

i'd been smiling too much these days
perhaps too much
to do my health good
coz once it fades
i know it'll go in a breath
once gone
forever lost
this silly, silly little smile
this certain particular bend
that curves the lips
that shapes the eyes
carves them way
way different than others
one look and you'd know
what it tries to say
though it tries to hide
maybe keep it inside
but no, it wouldn't be a secret
a glance and it's already out
for people to see
to think deep
and wonder
'who could it be?'
but people
they don't always think
the right questions in their heads
so their pondering can be
rather far fetched
but oh of course, yes
people can also think right
the right questions in their heads
though they may not
always verbalize
but who's to say
what this smile means
it's for me to interpret
for me to know the meaning
the way poets are left to smile
at readers who so hard try
to decode the thoughts in their blabbering
words pregnant with something
that everyone wants unhidden
coz this smile is bound to fade i know
how many smiles like this
have i smiled before?
and what did i in the end discover?
but that it dies out
in time it does
until one
that fateful one
comes its way
until it finds me
unknowing of its presence
until then i'll keep to myself
until this silly, silly
little smile fades.

why, i'm slowly feeling it wane...